October is a hard month for me.
I hate pumpkin, and it's everywhere.
It's not quite fall but I feel silly in my summer clothes still. (Get it together Memphis weather.)
I never fail to get sick at least once in October.
But mostly.
Every time I've been truly, really hurt by someone I loved it's been in October.
I'm a little scarred by it.
So I'm taking today off to remember the anniversary of what happened 2 years ago. I'm taking a day to grieve.
And then I'm growing the fuck up and getting over it, because it doesn't define my life.
Today I'm wallowing in my (non-pumpkin spice) latte and my books and just giving up for a few minutes.
Tomorrow though, this is it:
My new mantra whenever the past creeps in is: The past is over; I am free. It's taken me a few years, but I finally believe it!!
ReplyDeleteI'm trying to do that - I think I'm getting there finally!
DeleteI remember that. I am glad you gave yourself a day and that you are not giving this event any more time than that.
ReplyDeleteThank you! <3
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